Monday, August 4, 2008

Something that's helped...

One thing that has helped me during this time is to acknowledge the baby we lost as a baby- a soul that we will someday meet. For me, it has helped to write a letter to the baby and collect pictures/memorobila of me being pregnant, our family, the note from the flowers Ben gave me after we found out we were pregnant, cards/ emails people have sent etc.. If this baby would have been born, I would have made many albums for him or her. This is my way of acknowledging and always remembering the life God let me hold for just a short time.
In the mean time, it is still a day by day process; sometimes moment by moment- some good, others more difficult. It was a week ago today.
God is still good and is teaching us a lot through this.

3 comments:

Matthews said...

I'm so sorry. I know there are no words to say. I've walked that road, if you need to talk. Love, J

Kathy said...

Rachel,
As I spoke to you on the phone last week, I relived each moment of losing our little one in 2001. I am so, so sorry that you and Ben have had to experience this. I think you are so wise in acknowledging your little one for who he or she is - a baby. I remember my doctor calling it a baby, and through my tears, I thanked him. It means so much, as a mother, to know that people see your child as more than what our world says it is at that point of pregnancy today. I love you and will continue to uplift you in prayer as you go through this grieving process. God is good... and He created our tears with good reason... Cry when you need to, grieve that precious little one, hug your boys a lot, and one day it will seem easier and you'll be able to think about your child with the joy and peace of Who is raising him now.
I love you, my friend.
Kathy

Maria the Great said...

what a great way for you to have great conversation with God and be honest with your feelings and thoughts. you are amazing!