Yes its me. Keeping up this blog prooved to be just too emotional for me the past couple years while we wait for our girls. Everytime I get on my blog, the feelings come back of our trip to Russia and I am flooded with emotion. And so, I quit getting on. Typically after the first trip, the 2nd one is only 3 months to bring the children home but alas.... ours has now been two years. Actually, our first day home was two years ago... today. The Lord gave me the song, "While I'm waiting" and it has ministered to me countless times during this wait. He knew it would be THIS long. He knew. But we had no idea...
Our documents have been denied twice by the Kursk judges and now, after jumping through countless paperwork hoops, we are about to submit for a 3rd time. If our documents are accepted, a trip is set up and we go to bring our girls home. If it is denied... again, we will go and appeal to the judges in person. Either way, we will be making a trip this Summer and pray we will be bringing the girls back with us. How have we waited this long? How have we not lost zeal, or hope or strength? And eventhough my life has been in a state of flux for 2 years, I am not depressed or in despair.. how is that?? Faith. Plain and simple. No magic bullets. I'm no stronger than the next girl. But I believe that the Lord has brought us on this journey. There have just been too many things along the way... His hand is on us. I have no idea what the outcome looks like but I know His hand is guiding us. I have hope and I trust my God. And so does Ben. We have been a source of strength to eachother throughout this journey, eventhough it has been different for each of us.
We pray for the girls every night at bed with the boys. There are pictures of the girls all over the house and their room has transitioned from a baby room, to a toddler room. And their clothes? I've given up on trying to have the correct sizes in the closet. Friends have been very generous in donating hand me downs from their girls... Eden and Aubrey are apart of our daily lives and have been this entire time. They are apart of us.
Anyway, I'm being drawn back into the blogging world. I feel ready to share this journey again. The Lord is showing us too much and I am understanding that it is not meant to be hidden.
For anyone who may venture upon this little blog again, thank you. Keep praying, I'll keep you posted.
1 comment:
so happy to read your update. I'm with you & look forward to watching your travel plans unfold. Praying every step is met with strength supporting you.
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